Shine Through

such an interesting blend
today
of sadness and light
i woke up crying
and let go
crying into the pillow
and into the faithful arms
of a friend
releasing whatever it was
that needed
to be let go of
i am trying to identify
and identify with
my pain less
letting the tightness
in my chest
unwind
and so i'll cry nameless tears
from an anonymous source
and just let it out
today
i am restless
in this
the new light that has
revealed itself
i wonder
will stillness ever satisfy?
or will it unravel like all the rest
of those times
when i've tried
to build a life in just one place
don't get me wrong
there were smiles
waiting around corners
and delight in surprising and
unlikely conversations
getting out of my head
scrubbing dishes and wiping counters
with gratitude
for those
who believe in our own goodness
and dare to try to make a difference.